The God Complex

Today I don't Feel strong and smart and loved. Today I just feel like a regular person in this crazy world. Our kids have been wild (as Usual), my work has been unfulfilling and I just feel kind of blah. I'm not depressed, but I'm also not in a state of joy either.

Every single day I need an overwhelming amount of affirmation. I need to be told I'm smart; I need to know that I'm strong. I fish for compliments so that I might feel a tinge beautiful. I practically beg my kids to tell me I'm a good mom so that I don't feel like an epic failure at that part of my life. Even the slightest bit of sarcastic negativism can throw me into a spiral of questioning my worth some days.

I would consider myself to have a strong faith. I also know that my faith is not determined by my feelings... but I am giving everyone around me a God Complex!  No, my family or coworkers are not trying to be God... but I am placing them in the position that belongs to God in order to determine my worth. Maybe I am letting them take the position of God because I listen to the people around me more than I listen to God.

So what does God say?

I am God’s adopted Daughter and I will share fully in the inheritance bestowed upon Christ.

“The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s Children. Now if we are children then we are heirs – heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order tht we may also share in his glory.” Rom 8:16-17

God, the Almighty, is on my side.

“If God is for us, who can be against us?” Rom 8:31

“So we say with confidence, The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me.” Hebrews 13:6

If I am faithful to my trust in God, he will bring me through all things.

“And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Cor 10:13b

God has made me new!

“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone and the new as come!” 2 Cor 5:17

He will always be with me, even when I don’t see it.

“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in your will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Phil 1:6

I have a home and it is called Heaven.

“our citizenship is in heaven” Phil 3:20

Jesus gives me his strength.

“I can do everything through him who gives me strength” Phil 4:13

God has given me a powerful, loving and disciplined spirit.

“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” 2 Tim 1:7

The Lord gives me so many chances to get it right.

“The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.” James 5:11

The God who created the heavens and earth takes cares specially for me.

“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7

God Loves Me!!

“We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:19

Jesus wants to come spend time with me.

“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” Rev 3:20

The Lord listens to me and will help me in my troubles.

“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17

He removes all my blemishes.

“As far as the east is from the west so far has he removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12

God has taken special care to make me who I am.

“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful” Psalm 139:13-14

Reflection Question: Are you giving the people around you a “God Complex”? Are you letting them determine your worth?

WORD!

In the movies you hear God with a great big resounding voice that echos. Have you ever wanted to just Hear God like that?  Ahem, God.... I’d like to hear from you today.  Should I quit my job? What book should I read? Why is life so crazy lately??  I don’t hear God like they do in the movies.  But I do know that God writes to me... love letters you know. He says:

“All beautiful you are, my darling; there is no flaw in you.”Song of Solomn 4:7

“For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.”Ephesians 2:10

Who of you wouldn’t love to get a love letter saying that you are a masterpiece and that you are beautiful with no flaw in you.... everyday?? Yeah, me too!!  Plus, I just Know that my Bible has power and that by reading and memorizing the actual Word of God I will thus have that power... but why is it so darn hard for me to get into it everyday?  I have no problem doing my devotional by some great Christian people, named “not-God”, but to actually read The Bible itself... hmm, not so much.  Why is that?

I have truly tried lately to make it a point to read the Bible. To do it in an order, or even just read Something!  But yet somehow I always get in my own way. I make an excuse, I do something else, gosh sometimes I just don’t even think of it at all!

Hebrews 4:12 says “For the word of God is living and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart." Sharp, Living and Active. Those are the way I want God's Word to be in my life. I want the Holy Spirit along side me every step of the way.

Reflection Question: Is the word of God alive and active in you? Will you ask Him to make it so?