Today I don't Feel strong and smart and loved. Today I just feel like a regular person in this crazy world. Our kids have been wild (as Usual), my work has been unfulfilling and I just feel kind of blah. I'm not depressed, but I'm also not in a state of joy either.
Every single day I need an overwhelming amount of affirmation. I need to be told I'm smart; I need to know that I'm strong. I fish for compliments so that I might feel a tinge beautiful. I practically beg my kids to tell me I'm a good mom so that I don't feel like an epic failure at that part of my life. Even the slightest bit of sarcastic negativism can throw me into a spiral of questioning my worth some days.
I would consider myself to have a strong faith. I also know that my faith is not determined by my feelings... but I am giving everyone around me a God Complex! No, my family or coworkers are not trying to be God... but I am placing them in the position that belongs to God in order to determine my worth. Maybe I am letting them take the position of God because I listen to the people around me more than I listen to God.
Every single day I need an overwhelming amount of affirmation. I need to be told I'm smart; I need to know that I'm strong. I fish for compliments so that I might feel a tinge beautiful. I practically beg my kids to tell me I'm a good mom so that I don't feel like an epic failure at that part of my life. Even the slightest bit of sarcastic negativism can throw me into a spiral of questioning my worth some days.
I would consider myself to have a strong faith. I also know that my faith is not determined by my feelings... but I am giving everyone around me a God Complex! No, my family or coworkers are not trying to be God... but I am placing them in the position that belongs to God in order to determine my worth. Maybe I am letting them take the position of God because I listen to the people around me more than I listen to God.
So what does God say?
I am God’s adopted Daughter and I will share fully in the inheritance bestowed upon Christ.
“The Spirit himself testifies with our spirit that we are God’s Children. Now if we are children then we are heirs – heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order tht we may also share in his glory.” Rom 8:16-17
God, the Almighty, is on my side.
“If God is for us, who can be against us?” Rom 8:31
“So we say with confidence, The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me.” Hebrews 13:6
If I am faithful to my trust in God, he will bring me through all things.
“And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.” 1 Cor 10:13b
God has made me new!
“Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone and the new as come!” 2 Cor 5:17
He will always be with me, even when I don’t see it.
“Being confident of this, that he who began a good work in your will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.” Phil 1:6
I have a home and it is called Heaven.
“our citizenship is in heaven” Phil 3:20
Jesus gives me his strength.
“I can do everything through him who gives me strength” Phil 4:13
God has given me a powerful, loving and disciplined spirit.
“For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power, of love and of self-discipline.” 2 Tim 1:7
The Lord gives me so many chances to get it right.
“The Lord is full of compassion and mercy.” James 5:11
The God who created the heavens and earth takes cares specially for me.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7
God Loves Me!!
“We love because he first loved us.” 1 John 4:19
Jesus wants to come spend time with me.
“Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.” Rev 3:20
The Lord listens to me and will help me in my troubles.
“The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.” Psalm 34:17
He removes all my blemishes.
“As far as the east is from the west so far has he removed our transgressions from us.” Psalm 103:12
God has taken special care to make me who I am.
“For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful” Psalm 139:13-14
Great reflection on how much we expect from those around us. I often forget that everyone around me are just as human, just as fallible, and probably could use a compliment just as much if not more than me.
ReplyDeleteThis is one I will need to reflect on quite frequently. It becomes so easy to allow our worth to be determined by those around us, rather than the Father that resides within us.
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